"suffering" and "the practice"
In the middle of Tara's Awakening Consciousness in Shadowy Times (Part 1)
Found this goodie on my way to Kindling. This is so necessary to understand in order to feel peace.
I recorded some of the concepts. The record to text on the iphone is useful. I did not finish it (yet).
Through all this tough stuff going on, these hardships and disappointments.. I think we need to be present more then ever. We need to witness our suffering, and shine our light on what is going on.
This talk, like all of them, is hitting the spot. I'll share with what I've gathered so far, and will share more later today or tomorrow. I'll definitely listen to Part 2, and share what I can with you all too at that time. Feeling centered and present.
My notes are from listening to like the first 12 minutes, haha. I added little tidbits in there about my struggle, tried to stay on task though. I'm so not perfect, but I am so willing to improve the quality of my life and my relationships with others and the world. And I found it so useful for today. Woke up feeling upset, empty and disappointed. Had to share. I know many of us, like my colleague said, are in a "fog."
Hope this can help get you through the day, it's helping me understand and just "be."
Reflect on this: "what are you willing to feel?"
It is important to be in touch with the things that are bothering us. Tara calls them "shadows" and "dark things." Which they really are. Sometimes we avoid things daily, they can catch up with us. When there is a shadow in our life, and you are not recognizing it (and we all do this) it becomes a fear that we are running away from. It takes a willingness to see this and say "Okay, I want to get in touch." Then you see what is and take a moment to deal with it.
Our daily trance is when we are on automatic. We all do this. Unfortunately when we are on auto-pilot our minds are narrowed and we are forgetting what really matters. We do about our daily matters and try to make ourselves feel better by getting things done, solving problems, figuring things out, avoiding what can go wrong.. by avoiding setting the shadow off, we ultimately are avoiding the it and we stay in a familiar place. This is numbing. I do this a lot, I want to feel. I want to process and be free from it. I want to be more present.
The tension is the flag, the suffering too. These times when we fear failure, and fear rejection, our feelings of unworthiness get really strong. This is when it becomes clear that the way we are behaving means we are in the grip of something. I've ignored so many signs, listen to the flags.. step back, and step out and identify. Shine the light of awareness. Look down.
The ways these worries manifest is in two forms. Either we are fixated with "something is wrong with you" "you did something wrong" it is something bad that is outside. Blame. The other form is "something is wrong with me." Also blame. These are the "two main presentations," these moments are us being at "odds with reality." I don't want to keep living this way. I won't be perfect, none of us can be, I want to do this practice and the first step is identifying. I want to identify more. When we don't, that is us choosing to be unwilling to feel.
The evolved brain. Ah. "How do we bring on the more recently evolved part of our brain?"
We need to be able to see what is going on from aback with an awake heart and mind.
That is so hard. It is possible, like all things. It is a practice.
How do we shift from "you are bad" or "I'm the victim" or "I am bad" to instead, a sense of compassionate presence.
When we react, rather then reflect, that is the survival part of us scanning for what is wrong. I never thought about it this way, until Tara Brach. My therapist mentioned it in therapy, but I didn't get it until now. This is how we evolved people, its natural to want to react this way. But as we know there are consequences, as I'm learning through my mistakes in life.
When we are constantly scanning for what's wrong, that is all we pick up, over and over again. We are not seeing the bigger picture. That is why it is called a trance.
Speaking of trances, I want to write a post specifically on this at a later time when I really feel like I understand it fully. I'm slowly learning about my "trances" through studying these talks.
When we fail, the mind becomes fixed on that, and tried to only find evidence on that. Don't let it. I shouldn't either. We make mistakes, and we learn.
And when it is not us blaming ourselves, we feed the fixation by tracking evidence of whatever is happening on the outside of us. "He is doing that thing, I knew it meant.. " Blah blah.
It is my fault, OR it is their fault. OR this is the reason.. excuses. Be with it, witness it. Be responsible for yourself and your trances. I need to say this to myself everyday, probably all day long. Maybe tattoo is on my hands or wrist. Thinking about some ocean scene and some waves. Indefinite reminder. We are not a separate self, we are part of something bigger. An ocean.
Our stability, and grounding is awareness.
Otherwise we get fixed on problems, which is us narrowing our minds by sticking to this narrative.
THE NARRATIVE IS NOT TRUE, DON'T LISTEN.
:)
The suffering. If you are believing you are limited, and stuck. You are believing you are part of a separate self. Me too. We are forgetting the ocean. That is the key to teaching. Believing in something that is not true is hurtful and unnecessary. In these moments we identify with a "set of waves."
There are two pathways.
We tell ourselves we are "bad", or "you're bad." That is conflict with reality.
The other is remembering the ocean.
Our practice is to shine the light on purpose on what we might not have been looking at.
Break is up. More later.
Namaste.
Found this goodie on my way to Kindling. This is so necessary to understand in order to feel peace.
I recorded some of the concepts. The record to text on the iphone is useful. I did not finish it (yet).
Through all this tough stuff going on, these hardships and disappointments.. I think we need to be present more then ever. We need to witness our suffering, and shine our light on what is going on.
This talk, like all of them, is hitting the spot. I'll share with what I've gathered so far, and will share more later today or tomorrow. I'll definitely listen to Part 2, and share what I can with you all too at that time. Feeling centered and present.
My notes are from listening to like the first 12 minutes, haha. I added little tidbits in there about my struggle, tried to stay on task though. I'm so not perfect, but I am so willing to improve the quality of my life and my relationships with others and the world. And I found it so useful for today. Woke up feeling upset, empty and disappointed. Had to share. I know many of us, like my colleague said, are in a "fog."
Hope this can help get you through the day, it's helping me understand and just "be."
Reflect on this: "what are you willing to feel?"
It is important to be in touch with the things that are bothering us. Tara calls them "shadows" and "dark things." Which they really are. Sometimes we avoid things daily, they can catch up with us. When there is a shadow in our life, and you are not recognizing it (and we all do this) it becomes a fear that we are running away from. It takes a willingness to see this and say "Okay, I want to get in touch." Then you see what is and take a moment to deal with it.
Our daily trance is when we are on automatic. We all do this. Unfortunately when we are on auto-pilot our minds are narrowed and we are forgetting what really matters. We do about our daily matters and try to make ourselves feel better by getting things done, solving problems, figuring things out, avoiding what can go wrong.. by avoiding setting the shadow off, we ultimately are avoiding the it and we stay in a familiar place. This is numbing. I do this a lot, I want to feel. I want to process and be free from it. I want to be more present.
The tension is the flag, the suffering too. These times when we fear failure, and fear rejection, our feelings of unworthiness get really strong. This is when it becomes clear that the way we are behaving means we are in the grip of something. I've ignored so many signs, listen to the flags.. step back, and step out and identify. Shine the light of awareness. Look down.
The ways these worries manifest is in two forms. Either we are fixated with "something is wrong with you" "you did something wrong" it is something bad that is outside. Blame. The other form is "something is wrong with me." Also blame. These are the "two main presentations," these moments are us being at "odds with reality." I don't want to keep living this way. I won't be perfect, none of us can be, I want to do this practice and the first step is identifying. I want to identify more. When we don't, that is us choosing to be unwilling to feel.
The evolved brain. Ah. "How do we bring on the more recently evolved part of our brain?"
We need to be able to see what is going on from aback with an awake heart and mind.
That is so hard. It is possible, like all things. It is a practice.
How do we shift from "you are bad" or "I'm the victim" or "I am bad" to instead, a sense of compassionate presence.
When we react, rather then reflect, that is the survival part of us scanning for what is wrong. I never thought about it this way, until Tara Brach. My therapist mentioned it in therapy, but I didn't get it until now. This is how we evolved people, its natural to want to react this way. But as we know there are consequences, as I'm learning through my mistakes in life.
When we are constantly scanning for what's wrong, that is all we pick up, over and over again. We are not seeing the bigger picture. That is why it is called a trance.
Speaking of trances, I want to write a post specifically on this at a later time when I really feel like I understand it fully. I'm slowly learning about my "trances" through studying these talks.
When we fail, the mind becomes fixed on that, and tried to only find evidence on that. Don't let it. I shouldn't either. We make mistakes, and we learn.
And when it is not us blaming ourselves, we feed the fixation by tracking evidence of whatever is happening on the outside of us. "He is doing that thing, I knew it meant.. " Blah blah.
It is my fault, OR it is their fault. OR this is the reason.. excuses. Be with it, witness it. Be responsible for yourself and your trances. I need to say this to myself everyday, probably all day long. Maybe tattoo is on my hands or wrist. Thinking about some ocean scene and some waves. Indefinite reminder. We are not a separate self, we are part of something bigger. An ocean.
Our stability, and grounding is awareness.
Otherwise we get fixed on problems, which is us narrowing our minds by sticking to this narrative.
THE NARRATIVE IS NOT TRUE, DON'T LISTEN.
:)
The suffering. If you are believing you are limited, and stuck. You are believing you are part of a separate self. Me too. We are forgetting the ocean. That is the key to teaching. Believing in something that is not true is hurtful and unnecessary. In these moments we identify with a "set of waves."
There are two pathways.
We tell ourselves we are "bad", or "you're bad." That is conflict with reality.
The other is remembering the ocean.
Our practice is to shine the light on purpose on what we might not have been looking at.
Break is up. More later.
Namaste.
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