Final New Year.. (?)

I hope not. 

I've had numerous people come to me and tell me that "he is so different." 

It's been at most, only a year - and he is so different they say.

Don't worry. I've noticed. Since 2011, I've been noticing. 

My biggest concern and worry right now is losing my Dad. I can't. I don't want to. Not yet. Pelease don't go yet. 

I can't be attached anymore. I know and understand  the condition of life. I know nothing is certain, and attachment only leads to suffering... having a hard time letting go.

My Daddy talked about dying today to my half sister. I watched him as he looked st her, he admired her. It made me sad. 

I'm scared, scared he was saying goodbye. 

Daddy, keep fighting. We need your inspiration and strength. Please, please don't go. Not yet. 

We love you. We forgive you, we hope you forgive us. 

Please don't go, it's not time yet Daddy.